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| Lonely loneliness What do I often think lonely? The loneliness is a pale yellow street lamp; The loneliness is a cigarette of mid-night; The loneliness is fan's umbrella in the dim curtain of tain; The loneliness is a travelling bag which is covered with dusts; When you feel most helpless, miss that mood of a person's? I am unable to find out. I like a person,etc. to see wind shuttling back and forth on the hollow street in the street where the dim light of night fills the air, let cigarette fine to burn while meaning in a moving one in clear Ying, like that dark blue nail, a little deep, a little Yong is lazy, a little charming, come to attack lonelily turbulently like tidewater at this moment. There is not company of tear, the cigarette varied only in the hand ceaselessly at such night. Irrational again, there is no excuse, can unload the strong smile containing one day, then looking at the brilliantly illuminated city, the mansion of the charming coloured glaze of cigarette silently, guess another excuse that oneself continues living on. I want to be lonely to be a kind of weak poison, if you submit to it simply, walk along the curve which it delimits, you will fall into the trap that it is set up, there, the lonely and characterized one is inhibited and is made into an airtight network, you are unable to break through it, you will be killed lonelily. Who lonely seize, live in, who changes oneself slowly, until it is changed beyond recognition, beyond cure. Deepening the bone marrow maliciously of and me, have no medicine to solve. It is only in I one piece transient guest,unless it take nothing away, nothing leave,how the lively, what kind of prosperity, set off I extremely lonely more and more. Among the crowds, I lift the head silently, but can not find a familiar face. I am looking at oneself in the show window, enchanting dress, the long hair hanging down loosely, the melancholy expression in one's eyes, look for on very magnificent main road at mid-night. Deep sky, does not have night of a star, accompanied my a night lonelily, the loneliness can be booked by everyone, it is exclusive whose it is not also, but that I read the source of thinking at this moment. Then I live conscientiously, listen to the lonely sound with a kind of light greenish blue posture, sampling lonely happiness, wander up and down in the lonely years long river, perhaps it is for waiting for the next loneliness too, greet, pour out, cherish. I want to go to those flourishing and degenerate places, go to look for Go to look for the thing that I have been wanting to know all the time. Fan's unreal light, get the music rottenly, there is ice-cold beer. I pour beer into the throat in big mouthfuls, have drunk much wine, but has never fallen drunkly, the ice-cold beer has been cool in the stomach all the time from the gullet, the groan that I lower the voice, the ice-cold beer deepens the bottom of heart, interweave with pestering lonelily. Think the world one of miaow pairs of eye,whose name is the getting stranger only but land from world,tell oneself of I, I like this kind of feeling. Go, wash face platform alone, splash some cold water at face, see mirror laugh foolishly alone. The world is so beautiful after being drunk. Learn, cry again oneself, learn, reveal one's own emotion again, whom they park say me to be cold-blooded, but I just smile there, I know, it is unnecessary to attempt to let others understand oneself. The person who knows I shares somebody's cares and burdens for me, what the person who doesn't I wonder I calls me to ask. The tears can not solve any problem, will only bring noisily. A lot of things, we can move, but can't shed tears, because once does not interfere one's own emotion, I'm afraid that will let oneself choke with sobs. The figer tip fired the cigarette moved, the good wine that the mouth wanders up and down, I was vast and hazy at that time, I know I have found, but what I only think of in a panic flees from. Has left that extravagant and wasteful place, I do not know where can also go, I want to go back, get back to that place to only belong to me to continue looking for. Facing toward the computer and stare flankly, takes place the green tea cooled having a drink, that broadcast is DJ which shakes people's heart and lungs in the computer, it has already been before dawn at this moment! I find finally, thing that I look for, one answer, what 's answer it is on earth. My grieved walking a night, only look for an answer, what is the loneliness? Just the answer to this question. On the extravagant and wasteful main road, chase lonelily and silently with me, I saw lonely softness, like the warm water, like the light breeze, you can not feel it, are full of sharp material worlds in this, it is really insignificant. But lonely itself so sensitive, it look like pieces of a untiring one getting competent, looking for one's own living away from home in the ground painstakingly. It is soaking your health carelessly like a spring of Wangqing, when you are from giving out a sound of sighs in the heart of hearts, you realize, have already lonelily occupied your inner world irredeemably. In the flourishing and degenerate place, the lonely having me tightly, I hear that lonely in my slight breath sound in one's ear, I have felt lonely his difference, if there is only a fish lonelily in a small pond; That is lonely even if there is nothing in the pond. If it is in a lot of place of person to be lonely, but nobody accompany at one's side; It is when a lot of people accompany to be so lonely, can only keep silent. In fact the answer to the question is, the loneliness does not have the same one, 3,000 people, 3,000 copies of different loneliness, and I am only the lonely woman of one of them, that's it. Someone speaks the lonely woman like the poem, my loneliness is the heart of heart of leaf of the leaf like Li Qingzhao, Yin, continuous heavy rain of bit, wretched and intimate, to the limit tears in the piece. My sad sigh is as forever like the willow, where is the old friend? Water of cigarette is boundless and indistinct. A desolate gesture that I melt desolately like Zhang Ailing, there are not speeches that sigh lightly, the shadow of the string music is whirling, admire this world, like silk flourishingly more, it is lonely to smile at silly talents and speak. Become a lonely making the person heart-broken, the woman making people crazy about again. Say with feeling in this world having bosom friending, have conditions and customs with whom say in vain? At a desolate night, a piece of pale characters, a vast and hazy problem, a grieved answer. | ||
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| Feeling grateful has you Meeting Thanksgiving Day again, during this very western festival, we still rush about, repeating the trival matters of at yesterday, the worrying about clearly of today "The gentle heart gives to the sincere person, the romantic heart gives to the person in love, the eternal heart gives to the person that waits for. I wish, give, think people of the message first hospitable heart. Thanksgiving Day is happy! Feeling grateful has you! " But for greeting once of the network, I have already faded from memory and gone the moment of this warm heart far, dissipate on every stereotyped day All one's life have friend to be unforgettable to write always, always have some most precious days in one year, can't greet often, until special day wish rich safe lucky every day such as happiness such as friend, Thanksgiving Day is happy! People's life includes a lot of contents, let all of us have a heart feeling grateful, sincere favourite, every wisp of one that brushes pasts feeling grateful in life, in order to smile If it is this section that continue section of circles warm to brief on language packed with seeing and hearing of me in group in friend, I also regard today as countless ordinary and dull at yesterday Network outside, spring flowers and fall fruits, pass by several will it be winter spring among being boundless and indistinct, until today, I real to with you with warm warmth that feel grateful, take a shower Yin Yin for Thanksgiving Day ask ask and satisfied blessing, borrow the snow flake at a distance at night of this winter, kindness, ones that thanks for all understanding, with knowing that the paper is thanked crane sincerely, if in the reality and in being fictitious At this moment, the pure ear of voiceless sound, durable and touching, " act as the snow flake and love the plum blossom! " What a romantic a winters, snow flake put for the first time, it is if in white to be pure white, silver holds and sews the mountain valley, reflect the universe vastly; Small Red Star accompanies the champaign, a curved and red-and-white oblique shadow fills the air immediately in the boundless land, outline indistinct, seem one fire move fine very thin step walk to the sea of woods of the northern part of the country This is gratitude of season! Sow the deep love of the snow between the plum heart Feel grateful! Cross the monsoon drizzle, feel grateful! Carry the snow shadow like the rainbow, feel grateful! I tears such as rain, the rain remits the sea, the ocean accomodates all rivers on earth, stream past in an endless flow Such kindness of warm sun, can't be repaid by grass! Feel grateful parents, sincere filial son heart, reflect interplanetary, handle up life, act as, drip, offer the fountain, tender feeling take, like wave surge forward already as cold night, creak to act as infancy vast and simple and honest already, it is heavy as the life can't bear! Dear mother, you at this moment, can feel daughter chant in a low voice cry to bleeding light to chant speaking in a low voice? Fall flower merciless thing, turn mud into to protect, spend even more spring! Feel grateful in the society, dynamic heart, ardent, the oath of west window, turns the motive force of the work, willingly, it is light and heavy to avoid. Already all over the sky in the peaches and plums, it is self-possessed to glimmer in the candle light, still vigorous in the step that is cultivated, challenge as greeting if snow flake all sides plum blossom delicate and charming Feel grateful! I regard a meter of lecture platforms as the reference point, the love is written freely and easily, between radiation heart A bosom friend afar brings a distant land near! Eh the friend, the tears are floated for you, the rain is that you are boundless, cherish a heart that misses, does not wither in spring, summer, autumn or winter; You cook a cup of green tea for me in four seasons, I get drunk every night in 365 days; Cherish the heart of a blessing, does not reduce all the time; You send the green for a long time seedling here when the flower withers, I apply fertilizer hard in one year, prune meticulously; Cherish a usual heart, the honor or disgrace wind and frost does not change; You send several of tender feeling here with the wind when being busy, I invite you to think the cloud cirrus flies at leisure; Cherish a heart feeling grateful, the wish as long as the heaven and earth endure Spend as the Chinese Hibiscu to face window again in full bloom, trailer this blessing of sea flicker elegant, shake, offer you and I the truth after being wine to heart's content swear language As the snow flake loves the plum blossom! As both hands that are held tight spread warmly! Feel grateful! My eternal sincerity! Tonight, the paper crane is in Sichuan! My greeting depends on but the plum blossom is fragrant, pure because of snow flake | ||
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| The light spot of leaning over that pool of the last stakes again, the great waves of water let the moonlight reflected glimmer constantly, the luminous point flickered back and forth lets the last stakes be dizzy. He has closed eyes, the locality that hold small Lip river and get back to and level in the middle of the rock. Last stakes wrap up, stand up with one traveling blanket little Lip river, pave another traveling blanket at the rock, take out chocolate and biscuit, break off with the fingers and thumb into small one of one a small one is filled into small Lip river mouth. Little Lip river picture pieces of fragrant plant than the baby clever, hold, move at all there. The last stakes is believed, they have small books in such a situation. At that time, they were all happy. Enter the city, the last stakes is destined to lose small Lip river, and all bright life that he once yearned for warmly. No matter he yearns for with Ian, or the bright life which he yearns for with young Lip river, to never appearing later. Father of little Lip river fills the last stakes in " going around" on the magazine office, this desk at the moment, have sat for 20 years. The last stakes is known, that once wished eagerly Benjamin who set out on a journey had already passed out of existence, perhaps died in the north manor with Ian, perhaps has jumped off the cliff with small Lip river, die in soul, the one left is only a pointless body. The magazine office is a huge joke to " go around ". Various notices and notes nailed with colored pin on the baffle, jump and flash some pointless pattern in screen protection of the notebook computer, there is a water stain brown one on the coffee cup, is marking the time for appointment on the diary of the surface. Everything seems ludicrously pompous. But the last stakes is known this is only a joke, perhaps his life is all a joke. He loses the traveling blanket, puts on the suit cut out by hand and gets into the office, depend on chip recalled are written with some boring and amazing walking stories for those rich idlers. He has not gone out of one step of cities more, this place has already bottled up him in the fatal position. He can only be the same as the numerous other pitiful creatures who live away from home in the city, sit in the open-air coffee house of the city center, holding the quotations of reading the stock of financial edition of " The Australian ", the series of books of " lonely planet " for plagiarizing and using is put in the brief case of cow hide. | ||
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| Since 2000, I reach China every year, it is parents and educator of China that run the lecture entering a higher school about U.S.A.'s education and U.S.A.. Come back home, I write some speech outline and material, and with in materials summary that U.S.A. collect together them, bind Cheng HouHou's volume, copy dozens of, cases and arrives it at home, take to the speech meeting-place and distribute. My novel view and speech content have attracted a lot of audiences. Among them, I mention, assessed " give a mark " in relevant overall qualities stated in this book in each speech Method, dwell upon with great relish. In order to let my thought view spread extensively, in order to introduce one side of advance among the U.S.A.'s education current situations twisted to domestic readers, in order to change that kind of primitive circulation way too, I have produced the idea of writing with book, and began to start writing in 2001. The writing, this book, has very great motive force. One day, I reached the parents, high school student in order to plan to go abroad to study of Shenzhen, to lecture, at over 5 o'clock in the afternoon, as soon as I get off the plane, I head direct for the meeting-place, it lasts 5 hours to lecture, by the end of 12 o'clock in the evening all the time, the audience has high mood at the meeting-place. One day, a speech came down, received more than 50 messages questioning. Even if after getting back to U.S.A., I am still receiving a lot of readers' warm feedback constantly, the one that it is obvious people pay close attention to education is strong, ardent to what I looked forward to, make me encouraged deeply. Normally, to write book publish books strange, daughter 11 year old can write the book, and publish under the circumstances that I make arrangements of all alone I, it should not be a difficult matter to write the book. However, the one that was not expected is, I have written this book and gone through a long course. If expect at the beginning that will last 4 years, hold out through countless sleepless nights, could finish the writing and that published, I may not Botani| Squalene| Skin Care| Point of Sale| Laptop Batteries go to move this thought at that time. Why head like this often someone is puzzled, ask my writing time of this book. The greatest difficulty of this book of writing is turning the ready to appear thought in the head into a text with clear logic, with vivid language. To me, no matter or computer input far unable to happen, surge like the rapids, sometimes even " Blowout " Thought wave. Came to U.S.A. for several decades, only wrote very few thousands of Chinese characters, is not familiar with Chinese Pin Yin, the pace of inputting Chinese character of the computer is far slow at the handwritten pace. Beginning for first year of writing, it has taken a long time, go through all sorts of twists helplessness and painful attempt course of asking others' computer to input etc. after the phonetic entry, electronic board are imported, handwritten. Finally, toughen one's scalp to bring all English software and computer Chinese characters of the operating system, the heart comes, practise the spelling carefully by oneself, study the law of Chinese character input under the iron. | ||
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| I am distracted, look at carefully. Yes, it is mother. Time for five year like 50 years. Mother's face becomes thin, pale, so old and feeble that I can not almost admit. She is stepping the heavy, slow step, smiles and scolds coming up to me. I choke in the throat, " mother " The word is nearly crowded out. a￥ "Man Zi, the mother misses you! " Mother is smiling on the face, is flickering the tears in the eyes. a￥'s same sound, the same language, but people are specious, I can't help for a moment being miserable. I am in one breath, relieve the state of mind in mind, say with a smile: "Mother, get on the bus, we go home. " a￥ "Oh! " Mother promises, carry the stool with one hand, carry the parcel with one hand, slowly come over. She says the stool is done by the old carpenter at home, I need it. a￥'s mother seems meticulously while getting on the bus. I see she is sluggish, heavy, with becoming quite a different person that year, a kind of ominous premonition rose of itself. On a￥'s fuel tank which I will wrap up and take over and put to the body from mother's hand. Mother takes it on the car back seat very clumsily, puts the stool on the leg sideways, both hands look like and hold treasures. Netbook wholesale|Netbook manufacturer|Netbook review|Netbook factory|Electronic CigaretteCheap Netbooks|Best Netbook|Buy Cheap Netbook|Red Netbook|White Netbooka￥ is very tiring when taking the train for a long time, moreover, mother is getting on in years. I am afraid she sits and dozes off behind, controls the speed in 25 is stepped all the time, and remind her frequently, asks her some situations of family ceaselessly, impel her to cheer up and talk with me. Once in a while, I stop for a moment slightly, smoke and refresh oneself while chatting with mother. a￥'s mother tells me that an elder sister has built the building in the town, owe many external debts. Because the supply and marketing cooperative is depressed, elder sister and brother-in-law have run and retained the job but suspend the salary to go to Shenzhen to work as a temporary labourer, the nephew has gone to Shenzhen together. Mother has lived at home for a long time alone, it decides to come to Beijing to keep thinking about me. I stop a￥for a walk on the way, it takes more than three hours to less than distance of 30 kilometers. a￥a￥ Man's heart is like the sea Tide of need surfing | ||
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| Another Credit Card Terminal Point of Sale impression that uncle's granddad gives to me, it is he that goes back to Beijing from Shijiazhuang each time, must entertain numerous relatives and friends, he eats it all over the large big restaurant of the capital taking us. Have a course each time, it is essential first for the old man the lower chopsticks are inserted and tasted, judge it, then ask everybody to enjoy together. During that time, the happy laughters and cheerful voices are constant. Though I was young at that time, that kind of happy scene stayed in my memory of childhood deeply, it will still be moved to aftertaste today for it. " the Culture Revolution " of 1966 After sweeping across the whole country, my uncle's granddad has never gone back to Beijing, and I will remember him quietly sometimes. Listened to my granddad later, the whistle uncle's uncle's granddad, in " the Culture Revolution " Persecuted deeply during this time, is possessed by the demon of disease, cure finally, and has finished the life to the utmost point of his bitterness and happiness. " the Culture Revolution " Later, uncle's uncle's granddad can redress the whistle like a lot of innocent people. People begin to recall him, his singing tape, personal biography before death go on the market again and again, become an indispensable part in people's amusement life. And I this piece pass Sun people people of middle age, hear and see all these, already, heart always has a kind of a thin disconsolate and a kind of sighing with deep feeling of years to passing. 3 mother has deep-rooted teaching As noted previously, my mother was born a big family, it was a straight white flag of Manchu. My granddad and the grandmothers' ancestors all do things in the internal affairs office in Qing Dynasty, hold a post in the location of officer of a product, governor,etc.. Attended four Gege for many years at the Queen Mother Ci Xi's side that year, it was nine aunts of my grandmother's. My mother ranks the eighth among the girls of the big family, so the pet name calls eight girls. One that is with she and father and mother has two elder brothers, i.e. my brother-in-law and two uncles. Auto Diagnostic| Car Diagnostic| Automotive Diagnostic| BMW GT1But unfortunately, my brother-in-law suffered from pulmonary tuberculosis and died early because of failing to respond to any medical treatment that year of 15 years old. From mother's feature, makings and style, can clearly see she is the Manchus' offspring. The young mother looks extremely gentle and quiet and delicate and pretty, refined and elegant. She has received good education according to the Manchus' custom since the childhood. She is admitted to and complemented the department of education of benevolence university with the excellent achievement after graduating from woman two in Beijing, complemented the benevolence university to amalgamate with Beijing Normal University, change over to the preschool education speciality in 1952. Mother has been working in Ministry of Foreign Affairs kindergarten all the time since graduating from university in the fifties of last century, serve as the kindergarten teacher, protect and teach a director, long post of garden in succession, until she retires. Count and persevere for ten years as if it were one day in the ground, throw its energy throughout one's life into those lively and lovely ones, symbolize future children in the motherland on one's body wholeheartedly. Her children of that year, there are a lot of elites becoming all trades and professions now. After mother retires, still pay close attention to the infant's early education very much. Successively participated in Beijing toy association, self-closing disease children's intellectual development, and the consulting activity of preschool children education, publish many treatises about infant's teaching, become one of the experts of national famous infant of older generation. I have been the life since the childhood have seen mother's chances being actually few at grand parents' side. Though I was still her only child at that time, mother was busy with working all day, seldom have the time and energy to take care of me. Ministry of Foreign Affairs kindergarten was that year in regions of the Huang 's of Haidian District, in that time, talk about Haidian District, it seems very remote. Mother lives in the dormitory of the kindergarten on ordinary days, can't go back to the public otherly to see me unless reaching Sunday. I'm afraid just because so, mother brings me bit of childhood to become precious. Mother in memory is very simple. In winter, a cotton-padded jacket with the color is being covered inside a purplish blue commoner of Chinese-style jacket with buttons down the front forever. In summer, it is that the white cotta jacket matches a light skirt forever. Not having strong perfume flavor on mother, some are only the fragrance of the thin shampoo. She is mother of a typical Chinese style, the emotion is implicit instead of exposing, and does not embrace and kiss me very much, do not also say more words praised. Mother accompanies my longest period at my side, is once I live seriously illly in the children's hospital, have gone into a coma for a lot of days intermittently. I am 4 years old that year. When I come back to mother's side from the edge of death struggling step by step slowly, appear before my eyes mother that cry red swollen eyes also. Later on mother tells me, she was very afraid I will die at that time. Young at that time, the paired concept dying was ambiguous, but I clearly knew, mother's biggest hope is that I can grow up safely. Childhood season, mother's education to me, all to can it encloses to be can a bit all. Remember at I 5 year old, nearly from being newly in the rich concept, mother gives me a small saving box. The box is that the design with the house is made to save, under the elegant and tender and lovely pink roof, there are milky white walls. There are two windows with lifelike image, and a pretty and cleverly-made door in the front of the house. There are a small chimney, all coins, 1, 2, 5 points of coin on the roof, can throw in from the small chimney, when the whole house is filled with, open the door of the small house gently, all money will flow out continually. | ||
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| The Credit Card Terminal Point of Sale whistle uncle gentleman not only acts in an opera the grounding in basic skills is good, it is but also celebrated. His life poise is gentle and cultured, sincere and modest and amiable, get along with the apprentice, he always stays like family, affable and not having the celebrity's big shelf at all. Nowadays Professor Shi is his favourite pupil in famous calligraphist, doctoral supervisor, male genital of Europe of famous ticket. On ordinary days, he style of conversation witty, in groups friend. Besides acting in an opera, he is also fond of history, studies and the calligraphy. The whistle uncle is that my granddad and often visiting relative in your home of the grandmother add friends. While coming each time, always tell my granddad the play, and perform while talking, lively and extraordinary. The whistle uncle's uncle's granddad likes my granddad's traditional Chinese Painting very much, my granddad appreciates the whistle uncle's uncle's granddad's play too, they have a deep love between each other before death. At that time, in my child's eyes, the whistle uncle's uncle's granddad was just a very charitable great grand father, ground always with a good-natured face, speaking to me slowly. He like child very much, fond of adding me. His each visit, sure to take a toy present to me. In all presents, two have left the extremely deep impression on me. First, it is a bicycle of still rare child in China Pet Shop, Frontline Tick, Frontline Cat, Flea Medication, Flea Remedies, china wholesale,that year. The car is pure and chestnut, small and exquisite and nimble, can also hike in the open air to walk in the room. Second, it is a more peculiar toy, differ from my other toy greatly. The toy is the old folks of a pair of clay sculptures, two people's head can both move about. Touch gently with hand, two people nod while being relative while being alright. Two old men sit on two chairs with lifelike image separately, the gold silk glasses are worn completely. A different one is, the great grand father holds the newspaper, but the grandma is busy with trying to make a match. Two old man although all have the thing to make, in the midst of pressing affairs, relatively smile, this one smiles, still like that year, genuine and sincere. The toy, can only see, can't play, cannot be explained in words while being understanding only, I keep the strong interest with this. | ||
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